Stupid Computer !

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I just wrote 2 paragraphs of stuffs.. And it deleted itself >.<.. I dont know how it did it.. but it did.. ARGH.. lets try this again. [Not as fancy as before. and all in one color this time].


I'm getting tired of people saying they'll come around and visit, or hang out or whatever, when they have no intention of ever doing so. Not only my friends, but family. I was on my brothers facebook, and EVERYONE had left a message along the lines of "Come visit, I miss you".. I almost left a message saying, "Pfffft, Dont count on it. I havent seen him in 5 years, and Im his sister".. but I just clicked to someone else's page, but couldnt ignore the feeling, so -Blogs-. Another person being my Dad [No relation to my brother, but funny how they are soo much alike.. jerks]. He says that I should call him.. but Im the child, I shouldnt have to go to my parent asking them to see me >.<. So Eff You Dad.. Theres others, but I cant think of any at the moment, my minds drawing a blank [and besides, my mom is trying to walk out of the room while her foot is asleep >.<. Funny sight!]

My friends also suck. The main person being Rebekah. I miss her so much [and I talk to her everyday >.<] I just want to spend some time with her, but every time I ask her if she wants to hang out, her reply is always "I already have plans with someone else" ='[ Jessica is another. Oh God,, I miss her. [Its been months since Ive seen her.] I text her every once and a while asking her if she'd like to come over, and her answer is always "I'll let you know".. and I never hear back from her. I asked her tonight if she wanted to hang out on Friday and come over on Saturday. Her responce was "I'll ask" and "I might".. Trying not to get my hopes up... cuz I know I'm only going to be shot down, and disappointed. Dont get me wrong, I have friends who will jump at the opportunity to hang out with me [Josh, Ebony, Jordan].. But I really miss these other people. [John included.. =[ I miss you....].

-rants- I have two weeks off work. Doctors advice. So Ive been sitting here bored >.<.. Its been months since Ive just stayed home all day with nothing to do, not used to the quietness, and not having to run around doing something. =] Its a nice break. However, Ive been left home alone for the past 2 days, as my sister was rushed to the hospital an hour away. [She's fine, so dont worry]. And I've had very little quiet, and very little sleep. I was up all night on Tuesday, answering the phone, and answering the familys questions. Wednesday I was up calling people, calling work letting them know that Mom wasn't going to be able to come in, answering the phone. I'd lay down, and either the phone would ring and wake me up, or someone would come to the door and the dogs would bark and jump on me. Sometime during the afternoon I said screw it, went to my moms room and shut the door and crawled into her big bed and left the dogs and the phone in the living room. I've also had very little to eat. I cant cook to save my life.. [Obviously =/..] So I've ate 3 bags [I have no idea why I wrote pages O_o] of popcorn >.<.. Haha. My stepdad came home Wednesday night and got me food. But other than that, Popcorn it was. Hehe.

Anyways,, yeah.. thats my rant for the night. I was laughing so hard earlier, listening to the stories of when I was younger, and the stories of what happened while my parents were away.. Ohh Goodness..

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