In Pieces

I Bet She's Beautiful, That Girl He Talks About

Yet another song that reminds me of him, >.<.. In Pieces by Linkin Park.. its off their new cd,, which I happen to love by the way. I'm not going to post the lyrics this time. You have to hear the song to understand. But anyway. I tried to talk to Rebekah about it.. I've missed her.. and I've been trying to get her over here so I can sit down and tell her everything. I don't talk to her much online, and its to complicated to text it. -Texts Rebekah and apologizes-.. But it seems that she doesnt want to listen. I cant have a conversation with someone who just says "Ok" and "Yeah".. She's supposed to be my best friend, and if I cant confide in her, then who can I confide in? I love her to death.. but she's just not one of those people Im easily opened to. Same with Ebony. I love them both, but they are both to busy to actually sit down and talk to me. So yeah, feeling pretty down, and had noone to talk to. Didnt want to talk to a guy about it, cuz guys just dont understand. Rebekah failed me, Ebonys gone to New York, Abbie provided nothing except a -hug-.. So I looked through my list of girl contacts. Marjorie. I'm so thankful for her. She just let me rant on. And if we got side tracked to something else, she'd bring the conversation back to the original topic. Ohh god do I ever love that girl. Marji if you read this [Which I'm sure you will, cuz I'll tell you about it] I want you to know that I really appreciated you letting me rant on and get everything out. I truly feel that you listen to me, and you give me just enough words to carry on. I cant explain it.. just know that I freaking love you <3.

You Promised Me The Sky, Then Tossed Me Like A Stone

Continuing. So, after getting most of it on with Majorie. I texted Josh. [I know what you're thinking, big mistake right?.. But its not]. I dont care what you all say about Josh. He may have hurt me and broke me.. but he was able to do it because he knows me. He can tell when Im hiding something, or when Im trying to lie a little.."I feel crappy Josh" "How come?" "I dont know.. well I do know.. but its complicated" "How complicated?" "Ok so its not complicated, just a long story" "Im listening" Ugh.. So I tell him the part about Rebekah [Only I didnt name names] and how she hasn't been there for me lately. And he then says "Is that the only thing bugging you" "Blah Josh.. no its not the only thing, but its the main thing" .. ramble on some more. Its now 1 am and Im still texting him, well whenever he decides to text back [His phone sucks >.<].. I still feel pretty blah.. but maybe curling up with my kitten will make things better. I'm also listening to Lily Allen..whos pretty funny. Makes me laugh.

I'll Believe All You Lies, Just Pretend You Love Me

-Feels the need to rant some more,, but is to exhausted to type anymore-

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